So this has been the first week when we have officially started our trek to raise support for Germany. We’ve been laying groundwork (getting trained, communicating with our home church and employers, etc), but this week marks the beginning.
It’s interesting how many emotions came and went this week, and I just wanted to share some of those with you guys. They may apply to every one of you next time you are starting a new journey.
1. What are we thinking?
There is a feeling now, more than in the past that this is real. We’ve been talking about this and considering it for the better part of two years, and are confident that this is where God has been leading. Yet this week it felt real. Doubts came. What if we don’t get supported? What if the move damages our marriage and family emotionally? What if, what if, what if.
Spiritual Truth: We have prayed for wisdom, and believe in the Great Commission, but we are still human. It is dangerous to listen to every little tiny thought that comes up. Check out what Paul says in 2 Corinthians 10:
“For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds.5 We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.”
– 2 Corinthians 10:3-5
We have all kinds of thoughts, and it is our job to discern the good ones and discard the rest, pursuing obedience to Christ. When faced with doubts it is our job to double up in our confidence and grace, trusting that His grace is sufficient to keep us strong and provided for, and to deliver us from the times when we are weak and provisions are slim.
2. Pure Excitement
This week I have been more productive than I typically am. I’ve been knocking things off my list like crazy! To what may I give the credit for this? I think it is because we are excited to be doing what we know to be God’s will. His call is to go and make disciples and we are going to do that in a place that desperately needs the Gospel. But in order to do that, a lot needs to be done.
Spiritual Truth: In seasons of great stretching, God has always equipped believers to accomplish great things for his Kingdom, even outside of their normal ability. He equipped the craftsmen to build the Tabernacle in Exodus (31:2-6; 35:30-35; 36:1-2; 28:3). He equipped the apostles to speak “with Great Boldness” in the dawning days of the Church age, and we know that he will give wisdom and power to those who ask him, in His name’s sake. In one passage, Paul even calls this the “spiritual gift of administration” (Romans 12:3-7). God’s providence allows him to sharpen the mind and equip believers with abilities that advance his Kingdom.
3. Pray, Pray, Pray
As we have moved this direction, I have found myself more and more dependent on Prayer. This was in hyperdrive this week. As believers move closer and closer to Jesus, and as we focus more and more on expanding his Kingdom, we can expect attacks from the Evil one (note: point 1 about doubts, above). We can expect to be tested and tried.
As someone who (I admit), has always seen prayer as a place in need of growth in my life, I have been amazed how naturally honest, open prayer has come these last 7 days.
Maybe there’s something to be said about strong prayer life and living on the edge of your faith. When we step out in faith, perhaps then we see a need for God’s involvement in our life way more than when we are comfortable and life is good.
Put another way, God cannot fill you up until you acknowledge you are empty.
It’s natural to doubt a leap of faith when the time comes to actually take that leap. The challenge is to trust God’s grace in the midst of that turmoil, and not reaching back for comfort and safety.
Thanks for reading!